"it was love at first sight, at last sight, at ever and ever sight."
- lolita by vladimir nabokov

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Today, I felt so alone in a crowded train. The cabin was filled with people. Tired people, happy people, angry people. People standing close together, like sardines in a can. It was noisy. There was an atmosphere in the air that said, 'The weekend has passed'. I was lost in my thoughts, and for a reason that I cannot figure out, I just didn't want to be around people. I longed to be alone so badly. There were so many things on my mind, so much I needed to clear out of my head. I shut my eyes so that the world will go black, so that I will not see the people, so that at least in my own head, I could be alone. Seemed like an eon before I reached my stop. After an unpleasant bus ride, I decided to take a long stroll home. I sang to myself, and I paced my footsteps according to the rhythm of the song. I sang many songs, one of which was "Someone to watch over me", one of my favourite songs. I walked, as the cars on the road went pass. As people overtook. As the streetlights blinded my eyes each time I looked straight at it. I stopped to look at a tree, do you know how beautiful a tree looks when you look up at it while standing under it?

I am a thousand miles away from where I'm sitting.